LJ, why so shitty?

[straightrhodes]

Jeez LJ has sucked shriveled old balls the past few days. Trying to post anything has been a bitch and a half, so I gave up, lol.

About Me:

I'm doing well. My scrapes and bruises are healing quite fast. However I bruised my coccyx and that's just a pain in the ass. Ba-dum-cha. (Terrible jokes are my way of coping.)

Emotionally I'm, well not okay exactly but not terribly depressed either. I'm sad, obviously, but it's not depression. After so many years dealing with it I can tell the difference. I don't feel hopeless or lethargic or like I can't laugh or be happy. I just miss my mom. I want to talk to her. That's what I miss most, talking with her. We talked everyday no matter where we were. Even when I was in Japan we talked every single night. I could tell her anything. I don't have anyone like that now. Other than that it's all the lost possibilities that get to me. She'll never see me graduate or get a real job or get married or buy a house or have kids. Never see my kids do those things.

In other news I've been trying to go out and do things, especially with my friends. That seems to shock people. So does the fact I'm not crying ten times a day. Ok, yeah, I could stay in bed all day and cry, I could. But that's not going to help me feel better, and it's not what my mom would want. Plus I don't see where anyone else gets off telling me how I should grieve for my mom.

So far I've seen two movies in theatres the past two weeks;

1. Captain America - Awesome movie, even though it does feel like a prequel (it basically is).
2. Horrible Bosses - OMG I laughed so hard. I haven't laughed this hard since, I don't even remember. Excellent movie. I would say it's not for anyone under 16 though. Heed that R rating!

Tomorrow I see two more movies at the drive in: Cowboys & Aliens and Bridesmaids (yeah, I don't know why they're pairing those two but since I wanted to see them both and the drive in is cheap, meh)

I've also gone out for dinner a couple times and I might go see the Black Lips in concert on Tuesday, might.

Trying to plan the rest of my New York trip too. Any ideas?

Fandom wise I have been out of the loop. Need to get caught up on everything, except for the awesomeness that is Burn Notice and my newest obsession Suits. And those are only because On Demand tv exists, lol.

EDIT: I forgot, new mix up at robbing_banks. It's titled Death (& what comes after)

Comments

[admiral]

I hadn't commented on your last couple entries because of business/lj failing/etc. but I just wanted to say that I'm so very sorry for your loss. *squeezes* ♥ I wish there was something I could do to help, but I'm glad you've been able to go out and do things. I know everyone's already probably said this, but if you need an extra ear to talk to, I'm here. ♥

On a lighter note, share your thoughts on Cowboys & Aliens when you see it! It has Harrison Ford in it which is an automatic win for me, but I don't know if I want to spend money on it in a theater.

[straightrhodes.livejournal.com]

Thanks. I kind of feel bad because we just became LJ friends a few weeks before this all happened and suddenly I'm laying down all this really heavy shit. At the same time I recognize that people really do care, which is just lovely. Truly the support of my friends, in real life and here, have helped a lot.

I love Harrison Ford. Also, Daniel Craig. They're pretty much the only reason I'm willing to see the movie, because otherwise it looks ridiculous. But maybe I'll be surprised.

[admiral]

Don't feel bad at all, what are friends for if not laying down heavy shit on sometimes? I can't even imagine the state I would be in if this happened to me, but I know I'd definitely need all the support I could get. ♥

Harrison Ford is the best, I just watched one of the Indiana Jones movies earlier today, actually. xD Though ngl, a movie about cowboys fighting aliens sounds exactly like what I'd come up with if I made movies, so I'd probably be interested even if it didn't have such a good cast.

[straightrhodes.livejournal.com]

I love the Indiana Jones films. The first and the third are my favorites, although the fourth wasn't bad either. The second was alright, and occasionally funny, but not up to the standard the first set up I felt.

Don't get me wrong, I love cowboys, and cowboy films, and old western books, I'm just not sure about the Alien part of it.

[admiral]

The first one's really good, but the third is my favorite. ♥ Sean Connery as Indy's dad is the best thing ever. The fourth and second movies I tolerate mostly because I can't complain about more Harrison Ford.

THE ALIENS WILL JUST MAKE IT COOLER, DUH.