Jeez LJ has sucked shriveled old balls
the past few days. Trying to post anything has been a bitch and a half, so I gave up, lol.
I'm doing well. My scrapes and bruises are healing quite fast. However I bruised my coccyx and that's just a pain in the ass. Ba-dum-cha. (Terrible jokes are my way of coping.)
Emotionally I'm, well not okay exactly but not terribly depressed either. I'm sad, obviously, but it's not depression. After so many years dealing with it I can tell the difference. I don't feel hopeless or lethargic or like I can't laugh or be happy. I just miss my mom. I want to talk to her. That's what I miss most, talking with her. We talked everyday no matter where we were. Even when I was in Japan we talked every single night. I could tell her anything. I don't have anyone like that now. Other than that it's all the lost possibilities that get to me. She'll never see me graduate or get a real job or get married or buy a house or have kids. Never see my kids do those things.
In other news I've been trying to go out and do things, especially with my friends. That seems to shock people. So does the fact I'm not crying ten times a day. Ok, yeah, I could stay in bed all day and cry, I could. But that's not going to help me feel better, and it's not what my mom would want. Plus I don't see where anyone else gets off telling me how I should grieve for my mom.
So far I've seen two movies in theatres the past two weeks;
1. Captain America
- Awesome movie, even though it does feel like a prequel (it basically is).
2. Horrible Bosses
- OMG I laughed so hard. I haven't laughed this hard since, I don't even remember. Excellent movie. I would say it's not for anyone under 16 though. Heed that R rating!
Tomorrow I see two more movies at the drive in: Cowboys & Aliens
(yeah, I don't know why they're pairing those two but since I wanted to see them both and the drive in is cheap, meh)
I've also gone out for dinner a couple times and I might go see the Black Lips
in concert on Tuesday, might.Trying to plan the rest of my New York trip too. Any ideas?
Fandom wise I have been out of the loop. Need to get caught up on everything, except for the awesomeness that is Burn Notice
and my newest obsession Suits
. And those are only because On Demand tv exists, lol.EDIT:
I forgot, new mix up at robbing_banks
. It's titled Death (& what comes after)